Oi sheepshagger lewis cunt what brings your faggot ass here my beloved one?

Nice stalking doe, I'm way too lazy for that.

Also, dl/lp me.

You already have a new clan... Shows much you miss us.

make me u bongus

Boerhae is committing suicide I think, or he is just cutting.

We talked about it for a while, I tried to get him to stop. I really did. He told me to tell you guys. I don't know if he is staying in the clan.

Hope you guys forgive me, I've never been faced with this situation before. I probably could have said something to make it better. Here is the conversation. :/ (I'm hodor, he's Laughable)

Laughable!: Hello
Laughable!: I just want you to know I'm quitting Diamonds
Laughable!: Cause I'm killing myself
Laughable!: Please don't question it, just tell Beatzarr/Infinity what happened
Laughable! is now playing Team Fortress 2. Click here to join.
hodor: WHAT
hodor: wait
hodor: what
hodor: like
hodor: what the fuck
hodor: dude
hodor: talk to me please
Laughable!: I'm still here
Laughable!: But I'm cutting
Laughable!: Well not now, I just stopeed
Laughable!: *stopped
hodor: dude this is some messed up joke bro
hodor: you're better than this
hodor: don't
Laughable!: I'm not joking
hodor: whats going on
hodor: irl
hodor: whats the problem
Laughable!: An unfortunate mix of Bipolar Disorder and Depression
hodor: have you seeked any help?
hodor: have you tried anything?
Laughable!: of course I have
hodor: and?
Laughable!: it's why haven't seen my fucking school in five months
hodor: what grade are you
Laughable!: 8th
hodor: don't worry about school
hodor: especially in grade 8
Laughable!: You fuck
Laughable!: You're too far behind
Laughable!: You'd need my life story to understanf
hodor: Your life is worth more than school, I'm saying that you shouldn't even be thinking of school when you have this unfortunate mix of bipolar disorder and depression
hodor: what's going on at home? where are your parents
Laughable!: listen first
Laughable!: Dad's dead
Laughable!: Brother's dead
Laughable!: Poor
Laughable!: Stupid
hodor: fuck off you aren't stupid
Laughable!: Bullied to shits
hodor: you write the best god damn shit i've ever seen
Laughable!: Autistic, literally
Laughable!: but in a very mild form
Laughable!: can't handle school
Laughable!: almost got put in a hospital
Laughable!: a SUICIDE hospital
Laughable!: and is addicted to video games
hodor: How are you typing so well if you are cutting
Laughable!: I stopped
hodor: where have you cut?
Laughable!: my right arm
Laughable!: Not near the wrists
Laughable!: I'm not gonna die
Laughable!: So chill out and listen
hodor: Fucking hell dude talk to the clan please
hodor: we aren't idiots
Laughable!: I want YOU to do that
hodor: i've never been in this situation
Laughable!: I can't handle goodbyes
hodor: you aren't saying good bye
hodor: nor am i
hodor: you'll get through it
hodor: we can all talk about this
Laughable!: listen to me
Laughable!: I've done this before
Laughable!: At least 4 times before
Laughable!: I didn't have the guts before
Laughable!: I probably won't have them now
Laughable!: and if I do, it's a good thing
hodor: you know how many problems i've went through at your age
hodor: i beat the shit out of one of my closest friends because i was upset
hodor: and i was fucking stupid
hodor: i could have easily done what you are doing
hodor: and yea i look crazy
hodor: i look insane
Laughable!: you are not crazy
Laughable!: if you are, I don't need to be talking to you
hodor: actually he was my only friend
hodor: and that friendship broke
hodor: and i was stuck by myself
hodor: because i was too ashamed to speak about it
hodor: and i know this isn't as serious as yours
Laughable!: haven't seen another 13 yr old in 5 months
hodor: So now what
Laughable!: I told you
Laughable!: tell Diamonds what happened to me
Laughable!: bye, thanks for being my friend
hodor: no
hodor: you know how stupid i will look
hodor: just saying that your gone
hodor: i didn't help you at all
hodor: where is your mother
Laughable!: forget it
Laughable!: You are NOT getting involved
hodor: it seems that it wont matter if i did
hodor: i'll go tell the clan then
Laughable!: wait
Laughable!: no, don't wait
Laughable!: do what you want
Laughable!: I can't stop you
hodor: fuck off
hodor: yes you can
hodor: you just did
hodor: tell me what you were going to say
Laughable!: thanks for being my friend
Laughable!: I mean that

^Disregard that, I don't have the guts, at least not right now. I'm too weak.

If don't have the guts, keep trying to change things or you are stuck forever in this cycle of sorrow. I've read about many people with a similar description to you and really, this shit is nasty. I suggest to search for similar stories to yours, how these people handled them and how they ended.

if you don't have guts maybe someone is here willing to donate

I know nothing about this but try and let out your emotions somewhere like this thread. It will put less pressure on you an you will probably feel better

Boerhae, I'm gonna say this and I'm not sensoring it at all because it means a lot. I am in the same fucking boat as you, and just because I'm a few years old than you doesnt mean I don't understand you. I was there then, and even with medication, therapy, and family support, I'm still not there. It isn't something that just disappears. You just have to come to terms with it. This is who you and I are.
For years before this one I would sit at home alone ignoring everything contemplating how I could even live with myself. I can't even count how many times I've held a knife to my throat. I FUCKING KNOW it's hard, but if I can do it, so can you.
All of us care about you and want you to stay. We may not be nearby or your age, but hey, we're here. We want to help you. I WANT TO HELP YOU. You have no reason to sit around and suffer like I have and still partly do. Tell somebody, get help and get this under control before it gets so out of hand that you can't feel happy anymore. Trust me, it's so worth it.
If you don't want to believe me, fine. I can send you every single death note I ever wrote until you get it through your head that I suffered just as much as you are now. PM me if you want to talk about this, I feel like you might want to talk to someone like you.
Please just stick around for your old pals.


Meow. :3