There are some people like Suomynona, skulfuk, Reta, Icky, arctic, creati0n, fear, moop, blueevil, odlov, imapirate, wizard, cocacobra, tyzi, etc who I care deeply about. I want to keep up with them and see them succeed.
This game also mattered to me a great deal, helped and sometimes hurt my mental health depending on the year. Big part of who I am. Hard to walk away from that sort of stuff.