Terty, respectfully, I really don't think this is the right place to go about making amends. I believe you should focus on harm done and taking accountability. This post feels more focused on your life, your circumstances, your feelings. Those things are all okay in isolation, but as a post aimed at taking steps towards accountability for your actions, they miss the mark.
Reach out to those affected by your actions. If you truly care about the harm done, you'll know or find out who was most affected. Reach out and learn more about them, take interest, and ask what should be done about your impact. Sometimes a heartfelt apology is all that a person wants. Sometimes they'll just want you to leave them alone. Sometimes they'll want to work with you and have you demonstrate change through action.
A public post on this forum with this tone and substance feels like it's aimed more at helping you to soothe your conscience than at expressing remorse. That may not be true, but it's the feeling I get while reading it.
I hope you're truly on the upswing and I'm disappointed I can't watch 'Stronger' anymore.