don't do it don't do it don't do it

My grandpa committed suicide.
I don't know how I should feel.

He was an awful person to my mother and his family but he's still family so I'm not sure.

Hey man I lost a good buddy in high school to that, so I know that it's fucking awful. Send me a pm or vent here (or on the private board) if you want to, we're here for you bud.

Sean, we are like a family here, I'm also always here to talk to.

Actually that leads into a cool event I'm going to this weekend, it's a 1k for suicide support and awareness.

Also the Warped tour is coming to my city in a month and I'm going to be working a booth there selling shirts for suicide awareness.

I suppose it entirely depends on his life as a whole. When my grandfather passed away his last few months or so where rough so I forgave him. It all depends man.

Sorry though.....

I guess It came to this,
My grampa was abusive to my mother and aunt/uncle and he was a grouchy old man who was very selfish. Family is family regardless. While it is sad and shocking it's almost a relief because he would harass my family.

But I'm not here to complain about it. I just wanted to let you guys know I'm okay.

I have no emotions so I'm always okay

Pretty close to how I feel.

I'm normally neutral about everything.

I got a new job at a Mexican restaurant as a dish washer so I'm going to start up some gmod servers and maybe a minecraft or something.

It's a good thing you're not cleaning the bathrooms. Can you imagine haha?