Jisse, life is a gift, it's up to you what you do with it. Your possibilities are mostly limited by your will to go out and find them. You can have fun, make friends, pursue a career, volunteer somewhere just to say a few from the top of my head, but throwing it away is the most wasteful thing you can do with it, it makes no sense at all to do so. You can make others' lives worth living, just as they can make yours one worthy of envy. These people are all here to cheer you up, you mean enough for them to come here and try to help you in your time of need, so don't disappoint them. They'd miss you a lot.

I don't know you, I don't think we've ever exchanged words before, but I sincerely hope you'll find happiness in life.

Cheers